I stayed at my aunt and uncles bungalow colony for a weekend. I had a wonderful time and chilled.
I unplugged myself from any electronics, was not in contact with people other than face to face and truly let myself relax.
I found lots of activities to do and was not bored for a minute.
Everyone should be able to do it, even if it’s just to prove it to yourself that you can, and be okay with it.
I notice that sometimes feel the need to prove to myself the most absurd things.
Like once I was in the Middle East riding on a bus, (the public transportation type) and decided I was too lazy, and although I had already gotten on the bus and paid the bus fare, I tapped the signal to let the driver know I needed to get off. I walked the rest of the way in the sweltering heat.
The oddest thing was that after I got back (and truly cooled off) I felt relieved.
As if until then I was concerned (unconsciously) that I was becoming too dependent on the public transportation.
A few days later I decided I was ridiculous.
Although I do know that I was somewhat glad I acted that way.
Anyways a funny situation; while I was reading in my aunt and uncles living room there was a knock on the door.
It was accompanied by a bunch of giggling and some whispering.
There was no one else around to answer the door.
And I was somewhat curious.
Then I heard my cousin say, ‘my cousin will open the door.’
He is a good kid and I know he wouldn’t do anything mean -like throw slugs, or something boyishly gross.
I swung the door opened. ‘Yes? Can I help you?’
I asked this huge crowd of little boys.
Age range? From about 6-13.
The crowd made way for a little red-faced 8-year-old.
“I am a loser.” He said turning an even darker shade of red. He turned to go.
I immediately understood, he had lost a game/bet and that was the consequence they had chosen for him.
“Oh don’t worry- I don’t think you are.” I responded immediately. He gave me a quick smile (or something that could pass for one) and ran away.
Then something made me realize that for him that was the most embarrassing thing ever.
It was so not.
Any individual would be able to figure that he lost a bet or something.
But because he was underestimating everyone around him, he was mortified.
We do that too. Hopefully not in that scenario 😉
Sometimes we have to do things that are embarrassing. (Dragging a kid out of a store, because of temper tantrums…)
But everyone around us knows grasps the situation. (Okay fine so maybe they think it’s your child when it’s absolutely not and you’re doing someone a favor by watching their kid 😉
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Anyways I am very sorry that I haven’t had the opportunity to post in a while, I have been crazy busy.
I will tell you all about my adventures for the past month sometime soon, I just havta sleep for a little bit, to regain a bit of my sanity.
b.i.t.